Week one....

So i skipped yesterday (this i mean) but such is life.

But currently have nothing coming to mid so going to go stretch.

K.

Day Five

Today was legs and back. Feeling it some right now. God help me going up and down stairs (which wouldn't be bad but I'm doing laundry and there 13 stairs each way).

Tomorrow is Kempo X, lil scared. But also going to get a hot stone message, Mani and pedi. I'm so excited but my appointment is EARLY, but such is life.

Thinking I'm going to make homemade granola and garlic shrimp with rice tomorrow

Day Four

Ok so im alittle late, did yoga today. It kicked my ass. But going to try and kick its ass by the time I am done.

I got called into work today (today being my day off) and didnt get home till midnight. I guess some overtime wont kill me. Im just not looking forward to being there in 7ish hours.

Wish me luck on not over sleeping!

K.

Day Three

So today was arms and shoulders, I heard and felt my shoulders pop many time. I don't think it was hard but I know that I will being feeling it tomorrow.

Having food problems, food to mouth over taking me. no chocolate or soda, so feeling good about that part.

Any one out there have some good and healthy snack food?

K.

Day Two

So Happy Valentines Day every one! Happy makes singles feel shitty day!

So my day 2 disc was a cardio workout and it was mostly yoga. My knees are torn up so I need to buy a yoga mat. bad carpet, bad.

Still haven't gottin the junk food out of my home. And I got alot of chocolate and I don't want it. Really need to get healthy food tomorrow.

Wish me luck.

K.

Day One

Well if I do this tomorrow I might just have a pattern going on. HAHAHAHa.

Anyway did my disc this afternoon. So the worst part is over, did not get the junk food out today. Forgot that I had a class of money savings. Part one of three done, and day one out of 90 done. Short term goals, 1/3 and 1/90 done.

Now if only I could sleep normally. Not the great game of will it be 1 am or 4 am that I pass out? Because I get to wake up at 7 am. Wish me luck.

K.

Day Zero....

Have you ever woke up one day and just have no clue how you ended up where you are? I really don't like who i am anymore. Hell I don't even know who i am anymore. What do I want? Where do I want to be at this point in my life? Becuase being alone and feeling huge is not a good starting point.

Starting today I am going to blog daily about my hopes and wants. Tomorrow is day one of P90X and my new way of eating. No soda, No junk food, and No more drinking. Need to go thru my food to get rid of junk from my home. Get good food tomorrow night.

So any words of encouragement would be wonderful.
I think I will need them.

K.

Happy Zombie Jesus Day!

Emotional Break down. Check.

Day 01

OK I hope this will be day one of my blog yet again, don't promise anything. got my phone connected so that should make it easier. maybe.


that's all for now.


K.

Only Been a Year and Six months,

OK so where to start which is normally where i always start due to lack of being on here. But i truly am going to try this time. Been a year and more then six months. so figure check here out again. Wendy dissed me. so did every one else. i under stand due to not being on here. but I'm back and lets see how this round goes.


no cops no whammies.

lol

K.

May the Goddess Hear me

SO i am just going to ramble which i guess is a a healthy thing to do every once in a while. so hey. I want so many things right now in my life witch i guess i could say are little gifts that i don't have them but i just so scared that i will never have them. If you have not figured out what i want is this : 1. A family, that does not judge me. 2. Some one that will truly love me. 3. Children. 4.I want the American dream i guess. the house, cars, just the dream of happiness and no divorce, growing old with some that will laugh with me as our body's fall apart..

scares me is that for that to happen i think i have to wash my hands of what i think is right and just walk away. and let what is mine or supposed to be mine to come to me. and what happens if i do that and nothing comes. Well its nice to know that my true fear is dyeing alone and the horrible part of that is that we all die alone, no matter what. IS a soul mate something stupid to wish for?

hmmmm...................ME

Dirty after work.

So Whats the deal?

Well if your wondering what is going on with me to make so many changes. No idea here. just came to a point i guess where i was feeling about what i didn't do what i haven't done. What i might have missed. but what the fuck am i doing that for? I have had a great life some crappy spots but in the over all end, I'm not sick, dead, homeless or any thing like that. I can pay my way. that is good. I wish i was in love and maybe have kids soon. but that is all in the hands of fate. which i understand can be very humorous and cruel at the same time.







Now on things will be different, I want everything. I deserve everything that i can dream of. i don't need your approval in the end cuz i will be faced and judged by higher beings.


I used to become so angry so fast, now it takes a while i will feel sadness before anger now. I don't like it. not really, i understand the concept of it. safer for me.



A warning i guess for anyone who reads this. no one i think any more. but i will be falling off the radar for a few days. I won't be me when i come back.


warning you.

K

In need

Ok so i feel very needy right now. i want love. ok heads up world. lets rock it!

right now

ow we

So on last friday i had 5 teeth removed, 4 wisdom "so i am now an idiot i guess" and one moller which was distroyed by an impacted wisdom tooth. but i have pics to put up none that are gross sorry forgot to take them, and i got a few storys and tails to tell.

and damn it i want to go to build a bear...... another story.

night and take your pain pills!!!!

me again

plants

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