Saturday, June 23, 2007

confused.....

I don't understand me right know so i have seen 2 of my exes in the past 3 days. OK lets start with my 1st bf, he's gay. My 2ND is getting married, and my 3rd has had a child. which all make somewhat made cuz i feel like they are part of my pack. and that i feel left out. OK i just started to cry. you know i don't really understand what is going on, I feel so left behind, even thou i was the one that moved you know. I have a great guy, and we have talked about marriage and kids, so i don't know what all my crap is about but its there and I guess i have to deal with it. I am still very much attracted to one of my exes I hung out with him the other day. I had so much fun, the flirting made me feel sexy which i don't really feel that way at home. I had the thought of sleeping with him but i couldn't do that to my guy he does not deserve that. I love him i think. which is horrible to say. but hanging out with my exes made me have butterfly's and the excitement. cared how i looked. I feel like such a poser.

what am i to do?
i feel lost.
Help

2 comments:

Wendy said...

did you get my e-mail? I e-mailed you at the address given on this blog.

Wendy said...

update this shit dude!