Monday, December 31, 2007
But also to wish every one a great new year!!! and if you want to talk to me send me an e-mail cuz i can get those but it is hard for me to get here. i am going to try harder but i promise nothing!!!!
Monday, December 17, 2007
Thursday, December 13, 2007
single and looking
8 i think
[Parents still together]
one brother, john
my cat, Squiggles
any color, lime green
none right now.
[Color your hair?]
[Twirl your hair?]
i think it is up to 13 now.
[Cheat on tests/homework?]
[Like roller coasters?]
some of them
[Wish you could live somewhere else?]
[Want more piercings?]
some of the time
[Write in cursive or print?]
[Own a web cam?]
[Know how to drive?]
[Own a cell phone?]
yep i do
[Ever get off the damn computer?]
only to sleep, or have to be at work
HAVE U EVER
[Been in a fist fight?]
[Considered a life of crime?]
can't say that i have, sorry
[Considered being a hooker?]
[Lied to someone?]
[Been in love?]
[Made out with JUST a friend?]
[Been in lust?]
[Been cheated on?]
[Kicked someone in the nuts?]
not with pre-planning
clepto when i was younger
[Held a gun]
wet snow clothes
[What you currently smell like]
long and shaggy
[Current thing I ought to be doing]
[Current CD in stereo]
[Last book you read]
i don't know
[Last movie you saw]
Fast and the Furious
[Last thing you ate]
mac and cheese
[Last person you talked to on the phone]
oh yeah all the time (SARCASM)
[Believe there is life on other planets?]
Remember your first love?]
yes, and i still think of him from time to time
[Still love him/her?]
in a way, but I'll never hate him
[Read the newspaper?]
comics all the way, and the puzzles, and every now and again I'll catch something with sports
[Have any gay or lesbian friends?]
[Believe in miracles?]
[Do well in school?]
only my hat when its cold outside, have to keep my earsies warm
[Have an obsession?]
[Have a best friend?]
yeah, i think
[Like your handwriting?]
[Care about looks]
somewhat, public appearance for sure
in high school
[Do you believe in love at first sight?]
it CAN happen
[Do you believe in "the one?"]
[Are you a tease?]
Ive been called that before
[Too shy to make the first move?]
ARE U A
let me think about that one, does that answer your question
the halo is...
...supported by my horns
Sunday, December 09, 2007
2. Slept in a different bed?
3. Made out in a movie theatre?
yes, more then that too.
4. Made out with 2 different people in one night?
6. Been in love?
7. Slept in?
every time i can!
8. Taken a shower with the opposite sex?
9. Gone over the speed limit?
10. Painted your room?
11. Drove a car?
that's how i live
12. Danced in front of your mirror?
if you can call it dancing
13. Gotten a hickey?
14. Been dumped?
15. Stolen money from a friend?
nope, father yes
16. Gotten in a car with people you just met?
a few times, yes
17. Been in a fist fight?
18. Snuck out of your house?
19. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back?
20. Been arrested?
no. but almost
21. Made out with a stranger?
22. Left your house with out telling your parents?
23. Had a crush on your neighbor?
not to my knowledge
24. Ditched school to do something more fun?
yeah, the grounding was worth it.
25. Slept in a bed with a member of the same or opposite sex?
yeah, dog pile!
26. Seen someone die?
27. Been on a plane?
many a time
28. Kissed a picture?
29. Slept in until 3?
30. Love someone or miss someone right now?
31. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?
yeah, it was pretty interesting
32. Made a snow angel?
yeah, but they never came out looking very good
33. Played dress up?
not as much as most little girls.
34. Cheated while playing a game?
yeah, guilty monopoly
35. Been lonely?
36. Fallen asleep at work/school?
37. Gotten Drunk.
38. Felt an earthquake?
39. Touched a snake?
yes, they're cool!
40. Ran a red light?
yep nearly died on Friday
41. Been suspended from school?
kind of, it was in school suspension lol
42. Had detention?
yeah i think i still have some left.
43. Been in a car?
44. Hated the way you look?
45. Witnessed a crime?
46. Been lost?
yeah, in many ways
47. Been to the opposite side of the country?
48. Felt like dying from embarrassment?
49. Cried yourself to sleep?
let's not talk about that today
50. Sang karaoke?
51. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't do?
plenty of times
52. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose?
yep even my eyes
53. Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
yes, and it was good :)
54. Kissed in the rain?
55. Sung in the shower?
56. Had a dream that you married someone?
not that i can recall
57. Played getting married?
58. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole?
59. Ever gone to school partially nude?
60. Been a.... a hoe?
61. Sat on a roof top?
62. Didn't take a shower for a week?
63. Ever been too scared to watch scary movies alone?
64. Played chicken?
65. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
66. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger?
67. Broken a bone?
no, and i hope i never do
68. Been easily amused?
all the time lol
69. Laugh so hard you cry?
70. Cheated on a test?
71. Forgotten someones name?
72. Blacked out from drinking?
73. Played a prank on someone?
yes, a few times
74. Gone to a late night movie?
what's considered late-night?
75. Made love to anything not human?
76. Failed a class?
now that i think of it, more than twice.
77. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat?
78. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours?
79. Cheated on a girlfriend/boyfriend?
80. Did you celebrate the 4Th of July?
81. Thrown strange objects?
82. Felt like someone?
83. Thought about running away?
84. Ran away?
85. Had detention and not attend it?
86. Made parents cry?
87. Cried over someone?
88. Owned more than 5 sharpies?
89. Dated someone more than once?
90. Have a dog?
91. Own an instrument?
92. Been in a band?
no i wish
93. Drank 25 sodas in a day?
94. Broken a cd?
95. Shot a gun?
96. Been on myspace for more than 5 hours?
not just on myspace. i could be online that long
98. Have a major crush on someone right now?
mmm. every thing's mixed up, i don't know.
99. Have a religion?
higher beings are lovely, lots of different things
100. Thought about what people would say at your funeral?
once or twice.
What are you wearing rite now:
Sweatshirt and t-shirt, ow yeah pants
liking tea at the moment
pretty much anything but beer
***********Have You Ever*****************Gone
yes failed badly
Made yourself throw up:
Gone skinny dipping:
Yes, few times!
Broken a bone:
Been in a police car:
Rode in a plane:
Yes several times
Came close to dying:
Broken someones heart:
Don't know about broken but...
Cried when someone died:
Fell off your chair:
Sadly more than once
Lord yes, more due to procrastination than anything
Been cheated on?
Your room color?
Whats right behind you:
Whats the last thing you ate?
--------------------------Ever Had- -------------------------------
yes, more then once
Believe in love at first sight:
lust most likely, love takes time
yes, but never get to go
I do I'm a nerd
Who was the last person you called:
Who was the last person you danced with?
Did you last yell at?
Do you like filling these out:
It's a love hate relationship
Do u like yourself:
I try to
What are you listening to right now?
Hated someone in your family:
Hate is so strong a word and family is so complex, been very upset with? yes
Where do you want to get married:
Outside under the moon i think
is it snowing?
Diamonds or pearls:
Outdoors or indoors:
if it's nice outdoors
----------------------------Today did you------------------------------
Talk to someone you like:
Yes, often at work
Talked to an ex:?
yes, as much as I try not to
------------------------Last person who---------------------------
was in your bed:
Saw you cry:
Made you cry:
You went to the movies with?
You went to the shopping center with?
R. along time ago
Have you ever starved yourself?
i guess if I'm sot hungry
Are you the youngest in your family?
Whats your favorite sport?
Football I guess
single and Confused
Ever been in a fight with your pet?
no i left her in New Mexico, i miss her
Been to Mexico:
Been to Canada?
Been to Africa:
Been to Australia?
What books are you reading right now?
Future kids names:
worry about that later
What's under your bed?
Favorite sport to watch:
ear, 6 tattoo
What are you most afraid of right now?
Never finding my place in the world or the feeling that I'm where I'm supposed to be
Who do you really hate:
Actually I try not to hate
Ever liked someone you didn't have a chance with?
Are you lonely?
Have you ever played strip poker:
What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
eyes, lips, hands
Monday, December 03, 2007
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Monday, November 19, 2007
What kind of Pagan are you?
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|You scored as Shamanic Pagan|
A shamanic pagan's roots are generally found in Native American faith. A true love and respect for the earth and all that it yields is central to their faith. Wisdom is most often found in spirit guides or totems, who can be animals, ancestors, or spirits. Pagans who follow this path tend to be far more aware of the delicate web that interweaves the lives of every person and thus move within that web accordingly. They're usually deeply insightful, friendly, loving people and excellent friends and parents. Mysterious and strong, as well, they are often the protectors of their friends and family as well as the moral compass for their friends and loved ones.
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Thursday, October 18, 2007
but i am going to go. I still need to shower, was to tired when i got home last night, or was that really early this morning? anyway i think i will feel better after so going to go do that.
post later, with some pic!
Sunday, October 14, 2007
I really need to stop thinking for a while my brain feels muddled.
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
doing good did ny physical today for my soon to be job!!!!! then out of here! maybe a sleep over when that happens? what does every one say?
going to bed
Sunday, October 07, 2007
I'm doing ok, i feel very lonely but i guess that is my own fault. i wish i had some one here i could talk to who wanted to hang out with me. does that make sence? that is what the title means, i moved to find my self but yet in the process i am lonely becuase i want friends. define irony.
going to go to bed
Friday, October 05, 2007
Tomorrow is that last farmers market. Going to get up early and try and sell. Made new stuff hopefully they like it enough to buy. Buy damn you buy!!!!!! Anyway. On lighter news got my hair cut, got ride of the swan tail. I think it looked better. Just really short compared to a couple of hours ago. But I feel better.
Pictures next. So off to do that!
Lets Rock this!!!
My heart hurts. Just in general I feel so alone. It took nearly 4 hours for me to go out last night. God am I back in high school? Had an interview today. I hope they call tomorrow and go do the pee test and start soon, cuz then if all I do is work then I can be out of here in one month, 2 bedroom apartments is only $325. I think that is pretty good since in New Mexico a 2 bedroom is 400. I am thinking about the 3 bedroom, its only 400. Why not right? Going to be making around 2 grand a month.
Ok so I got it. They just called me, and yes I said yes. Drug test tomorrow, then most likely start on Monday. So yea rock that!!!!! I will be getting out a lot faster then I thought. Yeah yeah yeah yeah.!!!!!! So Doug yes you were right my parents are so crazy and not in a fun way. Found out the they have some one following me, and they have “sources” which make me feel non trusted and want to break an entering some place just to see if they find out. Like being in jail but a little worse. Never had to deal with my parent fucking pouting. I don’t understand.? I am so going to be out by the end of the month. Ye ha!!!!!!!!!!! I am so stoked!!!
My mother was like you are going to be able to get out sooner then you thought. She sounds sad but yet in a way relieved. I think they walked around naked and I broke that.
Sunday, September 30, 2007
anyway going to go see a movie not sure which one yet. for we as in Iowa is under a tornado warning, yeah!
I went to the historical association annual fall fling today. i had alot of fun, made a basket. I'll put pics up later. i thought it was pretty neat.
doing OK, bored. had an interview on Friday and another this coming 3rd. i hope i get it. wish me luck. i need a job its hard to be here with my parents. pity for me. but then if i get the job then i can get the hell out!!!
anyway got to go. close to time to temp the weather and get to my movie.
Thursday, September 27, 2007
Thursday, September 20, 2007
Monday, September 17, 2007
Friday, September 14, 2007
So my plans for tonight fell thru very up setting. the club we were supposed to go to is closed!!! Damn you DIDO! Damn you! anyway trying to figure out what we are going to go do. I want to get a few beers and some movies and maybe have an orgy. i think that would be fun!! HAHAHAHAHAHAH. that is to funny. I think right now that i am so HORNY that i would kill every one involved. but i guess i have more important things to worry about then sex right now. well i don't know if its more important then sex. sex is very important for a healthy mind and body. but that is a different day rant.
So i leave a week from this coming Monday. I think i will be fine. I know i will miss a few people from here. but really not that many. I could leave and not have a problem, which i know is bad of me but that is how i feel.
Well she was a close friend, we were supposed to see each other today. have not talked to her in over a year she moved to Florida with out letting me know. she is in town for the next two days. and she blew me off this afternoon. and i remember why i really didn't miss her. she did that the last time we had plans. just never showed. makes me feel like shit. just like i am not worth the time. I'm I worth the time? I hate how some people who are supposed to be my friend make me feel like shit and make me feel ugly when i am around them.
but you should see me today, i have gotten a lot of praise about how i look. I did my hair, make-up, heels the whole nine yards. I'm hott!!! but does it really matter? no one i was going to see can see me. so yeah, feeling a little like shit.
oh just a heads up I'm going on Day 4 with like 8 hours under my belt. weeeeee for me, things are starting to get really funny.
Thursday, September 13, 2007
I write what i feel.
If you come here to read my posts, look at my pics, or see who i have as friends. That is fine but when you get to the point where you get angry about any of it, DON'T COME HERE.
This is a fun place for me to write, and post pics of people i know now, in the past, or hell even people i don't know yet. your know me I'm a witch.
so thank you
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
What do you see if not me then who?
Is it a stupid girl or the leader of the new world
If you don't see me for me
Then see me for what I do not for what you hear
Speak to me not your boyz
To me as a reason for you being here
Ever think of that?
You think I'm just talkin but have you heard any Stuttturing of any word I've said
So in these words of mine don't hold your grudge
For you to stand there being nothin
Your not even known anymore
Your just a number that no one cares for now
Got to get up and see what is up there
Never known what every one thinks is supposed to be perfect.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Monday, September 10, 2007
Saturday, September 08, 2007
I feel so alone. Being alone is like Being stabbed. And baby I have so many knives in my Back.
I'll put up new pics later.
Friday, September 07, 2007
[B] - BIRTHDAY? sep, 27
[C] - CRUSHING? Kinda
[D] - DRINK YOU LAST HAD? Vinilla Coke
[E] - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO? Jennifer
[F] - FAVORITE COLOR(S)? Black, lime green
[G] - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS? ewww
[H] - HOME? wha?.
[I] - like being sick? naw
[J] - JUGGLE? no clue
[K] - KILLED SOMEONE? I can't tell you
[L] - LONGEST CAR RIDE? Minn to New Mexico
[M] - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR? choc
[N] - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS? 1
[O] - ONE WISH? safty
[P] - PERSON WHO CALLED YOU LAST? ryan
[Q] - QUEER? wha>?ER*#&%^$#)$
[R] - REASON TO SMILE? Love
[S] - SONG YOU LAST HEARD? dana cook
[T] - TIME YOU WOKE UP THIS MORNING? 7 AM
[U] - UNDERWEAR? right now? nothing
[V] - VEGETABLES? not so much. . .
[W] - WORST HABIT? swearing
[X] - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD? lots
[Y] - YOUR NUMBER OF FRIENDS ON MYSPACE? 34
[Z] - ZODIAC SIGN? Libra
How did you meet number 4?
What would you do if 6 and 2 were going out?
laugh i think they are both funny
Where did you meet number 8?
What do u think of number 7?
Have 3 and 10 ever met?
ummm no i don't think either of them knows the other exsists
What would you do if 5 Confessed they love you?
be weired out
Is number 1 your best friend?
something like that
Whose 10s best friend wit?
Do you miss number 1?
Is number 9 cool?
yeah she rocks like a party star
What is your opinion of number 6?
she is so sweet
What would you do if 1 and 4 were going out?
uh freak out. and left out, and most likly upset.
Who does number 2 like?
Do you have anything special with number 11?
she will always be my bella
Have you ever been inside 10's house?
Do you love number 8?
i don't know does 7 know about it?
Have you seen number 3 ever pee their pants?
no but i may be wrong
Have you ever kissed any of them?
do you have a crush on any of em ..?
something like that
2. Where was the last place you had a romantic dinner?ryan's home
3. Do you regret losing your virginity to who you lost it to?not one bit i might even bost about it
4. If you could go back and change one thing what would it be?alot but in the end nothing
5. Name of your first grade teacher?no clue, i remember mrs. ferno
6. What do you really want to be doing right now?sleeping
7. What did you want to be when you were growing up?doctor
8. What college do u attend?none
9. Why did you choose the shirt that you have on right now?cuz it was in the bathroom when i
10. What are your thoughts on gas prices?ass rapeing
11. If you could move anywhere where would it be?Iowa
I2. First thought when the alarm went off this morning?DAMN IT
13. Last thought before going to sleep last night?i wish i could sleep
14. Favorite underwear?my lime green thong
15. How so you sleep? on my tummy
16. What errand/chore do you despise?dishes, you never know what is living in them here
17. If you didn't have to work, would you volunteer?yes
18. Get up early or sleep in?sleep in
19. What is your favorite cartoon character?scooby doo
20. Favorite thing to do at night with a girl/guy?cuddle
21. Have you found real love yet?yes
22. When did you first start feeling old?when i started getting migrans
23. Favorite 80's movie?earth girls are easy
24. Your favorite lunch meat?honey ham
25. What do you get every time you go into Costco?What is a costco?
26. Beach or lake?beach
27. Do you think marriage is an outdated ritual?not at all
28. Do you own property?no
29. Favorite guilty pleasure?i could tell you but then i would have to kill you
30. Favorite movie you wouldn't want anyone to find out about?double dragon
31. What's your drink?liquid cocain
32. Cowboys or Indians?i don't care i love costumes
33. Cops or Robbers?once again costumes
34. Who from high school would you like to run in to? I think Dixie
35. What radio station is your car radio tuned to right now?no idea, had to change the battery
36. Norm or Cliff?wha!!??
37. 'The Cosby Show' or 'The Simpsons'?simpsons
38. Worst relationship mistake that you wish you could take back? I wouldn't have said no, and
let him break up with me.
39. Do you like the person who sits directly across from you at work?i don't work
40. What famous person would you like to have dinner with?Christina Ricci
41. Indoors or Outdoors?both
42. Have you ever crashed your vehicle?no
43. Have you ever had to use a fire extinguisher for its intended purpose?no
44. Last book you read? i don't really know
45. Do you have a teddy bear? blue zebra
46. Strangest place you have ever brushed your teeth? middle of the forest
47. Somewhere in California you've never been and would like to go? all the beaches, santa cruz,
48. Do you go to church? no
49. At this point in your life would you rather start a new career or a new relationship? i am
50. Just how old are you?23 and 24 in two weeks
Thursday, September 06, 2007
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
But i had a really full weekend. started with a certain some one not calling me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but ended well enough i guess. A friend of mine had a party, she moved, new place. anyway. I went going I'm not going to drink, well that did not last long. I got there and with in i want to say 5 min i had done maybe 6 shots of stuff I'm not really sure what it was. Jason handed it to me. and i have to say he is one of very few people i trust to that existent. so I ended up staying the night, with Jason, Sara his girlfriend, and I. It was nice the first night i have slept more then 3 hours. It was just a big dog pile, no sex. just sleep. got up went for breakfast. that night was a friends of mine b-day party. so more drinking and fun there. ended up at home at around 1 or so. Sunday I went out with my friend Sabini, we went shopping. I have a new swim suit two piece. I totally ROCK it. I'll put a pick up of it. I most likely will not be in it for no one here to take the pick. It's hott! But the it was Buffy night over at Jason and Sara's home. we went swimming, Buffy and dinner. it was fun. Then yesterday was Halloween night. which if i would have know how it was going to be i would not have went. I was very disappointed. kinda wish i have those 2 hours of my life back.
going to put some picture up,