So i am really pissed off right now. i feel so agitated that I'm numb. i have 14 days until my family leaves Iowa on there trip here. on Monday it will be 14 days until i leave. I want to have fun memories here but just feel like i am not worthy of them. tonight i am going to go out with a friend of mine. she will be bringing her husband that she is getting back together with. Do i take Doug? I don't really feel like that is the right thing to do. i really don't want to cause a big blow up. her husband is a really big jealous prick some times.
I feel so alone. Being alone is like Being stabbed. And baby I have so many knives in my Back.
I'll put up new pics later.