Ok so its been a few days but no i did not die. just not really a reason to type. I 've been in Iowa for around 5 day, had a birthday and thank you every one that wished me a good one. you bitches rock!!!!!
anyway going to go see a movie not sure which one yet. for we as in Iowa is under a tornado warning, yeah!
I went to the historical association annual fall fling today. i had alot of fun, made a basket. I'll put pics up later. i thought it was pretty neat.
doing OK, bored. had an interview on Friday and another this coming 3rd. i hope i get it. wish me luck. i need a job its hard to be here with my parents. pity for me. but then if i get the job then i can get the hell out!!!
anyway got to go. close to time to temp the weather and get to my movie.
K
Sunday, September 30, 2007
Thursday, September 27, 2007
Happy birthday to me
so my birthday is today the 27th. sorry i have not been on just alot of altogether crap to deal with.
sad about today, wanted to do more but hey when you don't know people prety hard.
I'm 24 so almost a 1/4 of the way there.
K
sad about today, wanted to do more but hey when you don't know people prety hard.
I'm 24 so almost a 1/4 of the way there.
K
Thursday, September 20, 2007
English muffins and diet pills
don't ask about the title it just came to mind.
Just remember that:
THE HARDEST WAY TO GROW IS FORWARD.
going to go cry.
k
Just remember that:
THE HARDEST WAY TO GROW IS FORWARD.
going to go cry.
k
Monday, September 17, 2007
Friday, September 14, 2007
Ice Tea and Hummas
So I'm here by myself which was kinda hard to do. I am eating by myself and it is nice. I'm having Hummus and a tall Ice Tea. It is so good sense with it being 102 out. anyway, my rant is back up, fuck what others think if its bad. I'll take your complements that is great. I like my self working on loving myself. but if you want to come here and pout then fuck off.
So my plans for tonight fell thru very up setting. the club we were supposed to go to is closed!!! Damn you DIDO! Damn you! anyway trying to figure out what we are going to go do. I want to get a few beers and some movies and maybe have an orgy. i think that would be fun!! HAHAHAHAHAHAH. that is to funny. I think right now that i am so HORNY that i would kill every one involved. but i guess i have more important things to worry about then sex right now. well i don't know if its more important then sex. sex is very important for a healthy mind and body. but that is a different day rant.
So i leave a week from this coming Monday. I think i will be fine. I know i will miss a few people from here. but really not that many. I could leave and not have a problem, which i know is bad of me but that is how i feel.
Well she was a close friend, we were supposed to see each other today. have not talked to her in over a year she moved to Florida with out letting me know. she is in town for the next two days. and she blew me off this afternoon. and i remember why i really didn't miss her. she did that the last time we had plans. just never showed. makes me feel like shit. just like i am not worth the time. I'm I worth the time? I hate how some people who are supposed to be my friend make me feel like shit and make me feel ugly when i am around them.
but you should see me today, i have gotten a lot of praise about how i look. I did my hair, make-up, heels the whole nine yards. I'm hott!!! but does it really matter? no one i was going to see can see me. so yeah, feeling a little like shit.
oh just a heads up I'm going on Day 4 with like 8 hours under my belt. weeeeee for me, things are starting to get really funny.
So my plans for tonight fell thru very up setting. the club we were supposed to go to is closed!!! Damn you DIDO! Damn you! anyway trying to figure out what we are going to go do. I want to get a few beers and some movies and maybe have an orgy. i think that would be fun!! HAHAHAHAHAHAH. that is to funny. I think right now that i am so HORNY that i would kill every one involved. but i guess i have more important things to worry about then sex right now. well i don't know if its more important then sex. sex is very important for a healthy mind and body. but that is a different day rant.
So i leave a week from this coming Monday. I think i will be fine. I know i will miss a few people from here. but really not that many. I could leave and not have a problem, which i know is bad of me but that is how i feel.
Well she was a close friend, we were supposed to see each other today. have not talked to her in over a year she moved to Florida with out letting me know. she is in town for the next two days. and she blew me off this afternoon. and i remember why i really didn't miss her. she did that the last time we had plans. just never showed. makes me feel like shit. just like i am not worth the time. I'm I worth the time? I hate how some people who are supposed to be my friend make me feel like shit and make me feel ugly when i am around them.
but you should see me today, i have gotten a lot of praise about how i look. I did my hair, make-up, heels the whole nine yards. I'm hott!!! but does it really matter? no one i was going to see can see me. so yeah, feeling a little like shit.
oh just a heads up I'm going on Day 4 with like 8 hours under my belt. weeeeee for me, things are starting to get really funny.
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Haters
I just want every one to know that if you come here to get angry or look down at me. Don't come here!
I write what i feel.
If you come here to read my posts, look at my pics, or see who i have as friends. That is fine but when you get to the point where you get angry about any of it, DON'T COME HERE.
This is a fun place for me to write, and post pics of people i know now, in the past, or hell even people i don't know yet. your know me I'm a witch.
so thank you
warning over.
K
I write what i feel.
If you come here to read my posts, look at my pics, or see who i have as friends. That is fine but when you get to the point where you get angry about any of it, DON'T COME HERE.
This is a fun place for me to write, and post pics of people i know now, in the past, or hell even people i don't know yet. your know me I'm a witch.
so thank you
warning over.
K
All I want.
I know my life is going to be hard, when has it not been in the last 23 years?
I know that i want to love, but i also know i want some one who loves me back.
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I know that i want to love, but i also know i want some one who loves me back.
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Wednesday, September 12, 2007
InSide
Deliverance in spite of this
What do you see if not me then who?
Is it a stupid girl or the leader of the new world
If you don't see me for me
Then see me for what I do not for what you hear
Speak to me not your boyz
To me as a reason for you being here
Ever think of that?
You think I'm just talkin but have you heard any Stuttturing of any word I've said
NO
So in these words of mine don't hold your grudge
For you to stand there being nothin
Your not even known anymore
Your just a number that no one cares for now
Got to get up and see what is up there
Never known what every one thinks is supposed to be perfect.
What do you see if not me then who?
Is it a stupid girl or the leader of the new world
If you don't see me for me
Then see me for what I do not for what you hear
Speak to me not your boyz
To me as a reason for you being here
Ever think of that?
You think I'm just talkin but have you heard any Stuttturing of any word I've said
NO
So in these words of mine don't hold your grudge
For you to stand there being nothin
Your not even known anymore
Your just a number that no one cares for now
Got to get up and see what is up there
Never known what every one thinks is supposed to be perfect.
Lips to Lips
Lips to Lips,
Mouth to Mouth,
Comes the speaker of the shrouds.
Suck in the spirit,
Speak the words,
Let secrets of the dead be heard.
Mouth to Mouth,
Comes the speaker of the shrouds.
Suck in the spirit,
Speak the words,
Let secrets of the dead be heard.
hatter
He's mad as a hatter,
Mad as a hare.
Go to the woodlands,
but be you aware.
Look for the ancients,
who shelter form storm.
but first you must pass throught the lair of the wyrm.
Mad as a hare.
Go to the woodlands,
but be you aware.
Look for the ancients,
who shelter form storm.
but first you must pass throught the lair of the wyrm.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
9/11/2007
OK so happy anniversary of 9/11. sad for people who have lost things and people.
but i have happy memory's of that day 6 long years ago.
enjoy what you have and treasure who you have, and fight for what you need.
but i have happy memory's of that day 6 long years ago.
enjoy what you have and treasure who you have, and fight for what you need.
Monday, September 10, 2007
Saturday, September 08, 2007
All Better...
So i am really pissed off right now. i feel so agitated that I'm numb. i have 14 days until my family leaves Iowa on there trip here. on Monday it will be 14 days until i leave. I want to have fun memories here but just feel like i am not worthy of them. tonight i am going to go out with a friend of mine. she will be bringing her husband that she is getting back together with. Do i take Doug? I don't really feel like that is the right thing to do. i really don't want to cause a big blow up. her husband is a really big jealous prick some times.
I feel so alone. Being alone is like Being stabbed. And baby I have so many knives in my Back.
I'll put up new pics later.
feeling unloved
K
I feel so alone. Being alone is like Being stabbed. And baby I have so many knives in my Back.
I'll put up new pics later.
feeling unloved
K
Friday, September 07, 2007
a ~z
[A] - AVAILABLE? yep
[B] - BIRTHDAY? sep, 27
[C] - CRUSHING? Kinda
[D] - DRINK YOU LAST HAD? Vinilla Coke
[E] - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO? Jennifer
[F] - FAVORITE COLOR(S)? Black, lime green
[G] - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS? ewww
[H] - HOME? wha?.
[I] - like being sick? naw
[J] - JUGGLE? no clue
[K] - KILLED SOMEONE? I can't tell you
[L] - LONGEST CAR RIDE? Minn to New Mexico
[M] - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR? choc
[N] - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS? 1
[O] - ONE WISH? safty
[P] - PERSON WHO CALLED YOU LAST? ryan
[Q] - QUEER? wha>?ER*#&%^$#)$
[R] - REASON TO SMILE? Love
[S] - SONG YOU LAST HEARD? dana cook
[T] - TIME YOU WOKE UP THIS MORNING? 7 AM
[U] - UNDERWEAR? right now? nothing
[V] - VEGETABLES? not so much. . .
[W] - WORST HABIT? swearing
[X] - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD? lots
[Y] - YOUR NUMBER OF FRIENDS ON MYSPACE? 34
[Z] - ZODIAC SIGN? Libra
[B] - BIRTHDAY? sep, 27
[C] - CRUSHING? Kinda
[D] - DRINK YOU LAST HAD? Vinilla Coke
[E] - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO? Jennifer
[F] - FAVORITE COLOR(S)? Black, lime green
[G] - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS? ewww
[H] - HOME? wha?.
[I] - like being sick? naw
[J] - JUGGLE? no clue
[K] - KILLED SOMEONE? I can't tell you
[L] - LONGEST CAR RIDE? Minn to New Mexico
[M] - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR? choc
[N] - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS? 1
[O] - ONE WISH? safty
[P] - PERSON WHO CALLED YOU LAST? ryan
[Q] - QUEER? wha>?ER*#&%^$#)$
[R] - REASON TO SMILE? Love
[S] - SONG YOU LAST HEARD? dana cook
[T] - TIME YOU WOKE UP THIS MORNING? 7 AM
[U] - UNDERWEAR? right now? nothing
[V] - VEGETABLES? not so much. . .
[W] - WORST HABIT? swearing
[X] - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD? lots
[Y] - YOUR NUMBER OF FRIENDS ON MYSPACE? 34
[Z] - ZODIAC SIGN? Libra
11 people
1. ryan
2. norton
3. doug
4.sabine
5.rus
6.heather
7.sara
8.jason
9.lindsy
10.josh
11. bella
How did you meet number 4?
thru PSU
What would you do if 6 and 2 were going out?
laugh i think they are both funny
Where did you meet number 8?
at Sabines
What do u think of number 7?
she's hott
Have 3 and 10 ever met?
ummm no i don't think either of them knows the other exsists
What would you do if 5 Confessed they love you?
be weired out
Is number 1 your best friend?
something like that
Whose 10s best friend wit?
no clue
Do you miss number 1?
yes
Is number 9 cool?
yeah she rocks like a party star
What is your opinion of number 6?
she is so sweet
What would you do if 1 and 4 were going out?
uh freak out. and left out, and most likly upset.
Who does number 2 like?
no idea
Do you have anything special with number 11?
she will always be my bella
Have you ever been inside 10's house?
nopers
Do you love number 8?
i don't know does 7 know about it?
Have you seen number 3 ever pee their pants?
no but i may be wrong
Have you ever kissed any of them?
yup
do you have a crush on any of em ..?
something like that
2. norton
3. doug
4.sabine
5.rus
6.heather
7.sara
8.jason
9.lindsy
10.josh
11. bella
How did you meet number 4?
thru PSU
What would you do if 6 and 2 were going out?
laugh i think they are both funny
Where did you meet number 8?
at Sabines
What do u think of number 7?
she's hott
Have 3 and 10 ever met?
ummm no i don't think either of them knows the other exsists
What would you do if 5 Confessed they love you?
be weired out
Is number 1 your best friend?
something like that
Whose 10s best friend wit?
no clue
Do you miss number 1?
yes
Is number 9 cool?
yeah she rocks like a party star
What is your opinion of number 6?
she is so sweet
What would you do if 1 and 4 were going out?
uh freak out. and left out, and most likly upset.
Who does number 2 like?
no idea
Do you have anything special with number 11?
she will always be my bella
Have you ever been inside 10's house?
nopers
Do you love number 8?
i don't know does 7 know about it?
Have you seen number 3 ever pee their pants?
no but i may be wrong
Have you ever kissed any of them?
yup
do you have a crush on any of em ..?
something like that
bored
1. What bill do you hate paying the most?rent
2. Where was the last place you had a romantic dinner?ryan's home
3. Do you regret losing your virginity to who you lost it to?not one bit i might even bost about it
4. If you could go back and change one thing what would it be?alot but in the end nothing
5. Name of your first grade teacher?no clue, i remember mrs. ferno
6. What do you really want to be doing right now?sleeping
7. What did you want to be when you were growing up?doctor
8. What college do u attend?none
9. Why did you choose the shirt that you have on right now?cuz it was in the bathroom when i
showered
10. What are your thoughts on gas prices?ass rapeing
11. If you could move anywhere where would it be?Iowa
I2. First thought when the alarm went off this morning?DAMN IT
13. Last thought before going to sleep last night?i wish i could sleep
14. Favorite underwear?my lime green thong
15. How so you sleep? on my tummy
16. What errand/chore do you despise?dishes, you never know what is living in them here
17. If you didn't have to work, would you volunteer?yes
18. Get up early or sleep in?sleep in
19. What is your favorite cartoon character?scooby doo
20. Favorite thing to do at night with a girl/guy?cuddle
21. Have you found real love yet?yes
22. When did you first start feeling old?when i started getting migrans
23. Favorite 80's movie?earth girls are easy
24. Your favorite lunch meat?honey ham
25. What do you get every time you go into Costco?What is a costco?
26. Beach or lake?beach
27. Do you think marriage is an outdated ritual?not at all
28. Do you own property?no
29. Favorite guilty pleasure?i could tell you but then i would have to kill you
30. Favorite movie you wouldn't want anyone to find out about?double dragon
31. What's your drink?liquid cocain
32. Cowboys or Indians?i don't care i love costumes
33. Cops or Robbers?once again costumes
34. Who from high school would you like to run in to? I think Dixie
35. What radio station is your car radio tuned to right now?no idea, had to change the battery
36. Norm or Cliff?wha!!??
37. 'The Cosby Show' or 'The Simpsons'?simpsons
38. Worst relationship mistake that you wish you could take back? I wouldn't have said no, and
let him break up with me.
39. Do you like the person who sits directly across from you at work?i don't work
40. What famous person would you like to have dinner with?Christina Ricci
41. Indoors or Outdoors?both
42. Have you ever crashed your vehicle?no
43. Have you ever had to use a fire extinguisher for its intended purpose?no
44. Last book you read? i don't really know
45. Do you have a teddy bear? blue zebra
46. Strangest place you have ever brushed your teeth? middle of the forest
47. Somewhere in California you've never been and would like to go? all the beaches, santa cruz,
san diego
48. Do you go to church? no
49. At this point in your life would you rather start a new career or a new relationship? i am
doing both
50. Just how old are you?23 and 24 in two weeks
2. Where was the last place you had a romantic dinner?ryan's home
3. Do you regret losing your virginity to who you lost it to?not one bit i might even bost about it
4. If you could go back and change one thing what would it be?alot but in the end nothing
5. Name of your first grade teacher?no clue, i remember mrs. ferno
6. What do you really want to be doing right now?sleeping
7. What did you want to be when you were growing up?doctor
8. What college do u attend?none
9. Why did you choose the shirt that you have on right now?cuz it was in the bathroom when i
showered
10. What are your thoughts on gas prices?ass rapeing
11. If you could move anywhere where would it be?Iowa
I2. First thought when the alarm went off this morning?DAMN IT
13. Last thought before going to sleep last night?i wish i could sleep
14. Favorite underwear?my lime green thong
15. How so you sleep? on my tummy
16. What errand/chore do you despise?dishes, you never know what is living in them here
17. If you didn't have to work, would you volunteer?yes
18. Get up early or sleep in?sleep in
19. What is your favorite cartoon character?scooby doo
20. Favorite thing to do at night with a girl/guy?cuddle
21. Have you found real love yet?yes
22. When did you first start feeling old?when i started getting migrans
23. Favorite 80's movie?earth girls are easy
24. Your favorite lunch meat?honey ham
25. What do you get every time you go into Costco?What is a costco?
26. Beach or lake?beach
27. Do you think marriage is an outdated ritual?not at all
28. Do you own property?no
29. Favorite guilty pleasure?i could tell you but then i would have to kill you
30. Favorite movie you wouldn't want anyone to find out about?double dragon
31. What's your drink?liquid cocain
32. Cowboys or Indians?i don't care i love costumes
33. Cops or Robbers?once again costumes
34. Who from high school would you like to run in to? I think Dixie
35. What radio station is your car radio tuned to right now?no idea, had to change the battery
36. Norm or Cliff?wha!!??
37. 'The Cosby Show' or 'The Simpsons'?simpsons
38. Worst relationship mistake that you wish you could take back? I wouldn't have said no, and
let him break up with me.
39. Do you like the person who sits directly across from you at work?i don't work
40. What famous person would you like to have dinner with?Christina Ricci
41. Indoors or Outdoors?both
42. Have you ever crashed your vehicle?no
43. Have you ever had to use a fire extinguisher for its intended purpose?no
44. Last book you read? i don't really know
45. Do you have a teddy bear? blue zebra
46. Strangest place you have ever brushed your teeth? middle of the forest
47. Somewhere in California you've never been and would like to go? all the beaches, santa cruz,
san diego
48. Do you go to church? no
49. At this point in your life would you rather start a new career or a new relationship? i am
doing both
50. Just how old are you?23 and 24 in two weeks
Thursday, September 06, 2007
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
9/4/07.4
SO this is some of my home made jewlery. I made my living over the summer in Iowa selling it. What does every one think?
9/4/07.2
Ok so Belated Happy Labor Day, WOOHOO on price of gas? I didn't think they could anal rape more then they were. I was Wrong.
But i had a really full weekend. started with a certain some one not calling me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but ended well enough i guess. A friend of mine had a party, she moved, new place. anyway. I went going I'm not going to drink, well that did not last long. I got there and with in i want to say 5 min i had done maybe 6 shots of stuff I'm not really sure what it was. Jason handed it to me. and i have to say he is one of very few people i trust to that existent. so I ended up staying the night, with Jason, Sara his girlfriend, and I. It was nice the first night i have slept more then 3 hours. It was just a big dog pile, no sex. just sleep. got up went for breakfast. that night was a friends of mine b-day party. so more drinking and fun there. ended up at home at around 1 or so. Sunday I went out with my friend Sabini, we went shopping. I have a new swim suit two piece. I totally ROCK it. I'll put a pick up of it. I most likely will not be in it for no one here to take the pick. It's hott! But the it was Buffy night over at Jason and Sara's home. we went swimming, Buffy and dinner. it was fun. Then yesterday was Halloween night. which if i would have know how it was going to be i would not have went. I was very disappointed. kinda wish i have those 2 hours of my life back.
going to put some picture up,
post later,
K
But i had a really full weekend. started with a certain some one not calling me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but ended well enough i guess. A friend of mine had a party, she moved, new place. anyway. I went going I'm not going to drink, well that did not last long. I got there and with in i want to say 5 min i had done maybe 6 shots of stuff I'm not really sure what it was. Jason handed it to me. and i have to say he is one of very few people i trust to that existent. so I ended up staying the night, with Jason, Sara his girlfriend, and I. It was nice the first night i have slept more then 3 hours. It was just a big dog pile, no sex. just sleep. got up went for breakfast. that night was a friends of mine b-day party. so more drinking and fun there. ended up at home at around 1 or so. Sunday I went out with my friend Sabini, we went shopping. I have a new swim suit two piece. I totally ROCK it. I'll put a pick up of it. I most likely will not be in it for no one here to take the pick. It's hott! But the it was Buffy night over at Jason and Sara's home. we went swimming, Buffy and dinner. it was fun. Then yesterday was Halloween night. which if i would have know how it was going to be i would not have went. I was very disappointed. kinda wish i have those 2 hours of my life back.
going to put some picture up,
post later,
K
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