So today is my last day here at Ryan's home. which does feel very comfy here for me and i have said that his home is my home more then once witch i find funny and kinda hopeful. I know i am jumping the gun on that but hey a girl can dream right. I was able to ask a question that i have wanted to ask for a while. he said yes and i just got so over joyed that i wanted to scream my happiness. and he is the only one who needs to know my question, and no matter how much you beg i won;t tell you! *sticks tongue out*
I go back on Tuesday the 21st. and i am scared. I know that moving back is a step forward its just hard to leave every one i know. I know that i will be closer to my family and a few people that i care about deeply. I know that the people who actulaly care about me want me to grow, and the ones that are the fucking players for the drama can fuck lick my *insurt odd word here*. anyway over that. just wanted to document the anger and sadness i am haveing about leaveing here, iowa and new mexico.
owww and King, you know who you are, I want you to know that even if i am to scared to say it in person, I try to show it but not sure if i am doing a good enough job. That I do still love you.