OK so i have like less then a week left here before returning back to my living place. I don't feel like i have a home any more. I know that home is where you are loved but what the fuck man. I know what it is like for someone to love me, but to feel loved is entirely different. I feel lost, and having to go back and go hey I'm going to live here for a couple of weeks and kinda use you for survival, before i go back. thanks!
I wonder what it would be like if the people i know would just tell me what they are feeling, just so i can know. I love you, I hate you, this really sucks how could you do this to me. you know just to understand and maybe it would help me out in the end.
Any way that is the last of this for a couple of days, spending time at Ryan's. So going to have fun, maybe get some pictures taken, and just relax.
And this is post 136, all for Ryan, he will understand!
trying to peace out here.